Postscript:
In the days leading up to Rosh Hashanah it is customary to perform cheshbon hanefesh (חֶשְׁבּוֹן הַנֶּפֶשׁ), that is, "an accounting of the soul." To the degree that our motives and desires are hidden from us, we become strangers to ourselves. The way to find healing and integration, then, is to first of all to come to the light - to ask God to help us be honest and transparent before Him: "Search me, O God, and know my heart..."
Unnoticed inner desires, urges, and so on, do their secret work in the hidden parts of the soul - free to affect us because they operate under the surface. Left unchecked, these passions will lead us to be "double-minded" and unstable in our affections (James 1:8). When we bring our secrets to the light, however, they lose their power over us. For example, we can be honest with ourselves by acknowledging our hidden pride, our secret desire to be "different" (i.e., better) or "more spiritual" than others, and so on. Likewise we can confess our yearning for the approval of others -- our lust to be respected, admired or even worshiped. We bring all such "secret stuff" to the light and ask God for deliverance....
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